Sunday, 31 July 2011

The Kittycat Is Back

I am fully aware that right now I would most likely be considered as the most indecisive blogger out there. My minds been all over the place, I've been blogging one minute and not the next, starting a new blog and then not being fully happy with it. To be honest I think I've just been generally unsatisfied recently. Do you know when your just going through one of those phases where absolutely nothing is going right for you, well that is currently me. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean to ramble on here, feeling overly sorry for myself, i'm not, i'm sick of wallowing and feeling sorry for myself, that's why recently I've been thinking about my future, what I want out of life, what I want to do. Not getting ahead of myself but I feel like i'm in one of those blah patches of my life which seems to be going nowhere. So i'm thinking ambitions, ambitions, ambitions.
As most of my readers will know, i'm currently working towards my drama degree, not that I know what i'm going to do with it, I've kinda always gone for the safe option, thinking I'll do this and then do a P.G.C.E and teach. But is that really something I want to spend the rest of my life doing ? I don't know. The only two job ambitions that ever really get me excited is either working for a fashion magazine like Elle, Harpers Bizarre or god forbid Vogue or when I was little I used to want to work in one of those shelters for orphaned monkeys! I know right, fashion magazine v's monkeys, have you ever heard anything like it! But seriously how competitive is it to get a job at any successful magazine, can I really risk my whole future and just go for it. I wouldn't even know where to start. I would love to write my own column, that would just be a dream come true.
But when do you stop dreaming and start thinking shit ... bills!

Wow that was a rant, talk about coming back to the blog after a break and hitting you with the heavy stuff, what can I say I've just been thinking about things lately.
I've also decided that after uni, I would love to move down to London, which means I really need to get a job and start saving! I want a fresh start and I've always been a city girl, I love the bustle and excitement, with so many different opportunities, people and cultures.
I'm dreaming big people, which mean i'm making changes in my life starting from now, it's almost like a list of things that I will start doing to work towards a new me and a new life .. basically i'm gonna become a reading, writing, full on nerd for a while. Who has an eye for style of course. Here's my list of perfectly reasonable goals...

1. Minimal alcohol (I am cleansing my body)
2. Explore new and healthy food combinations (still with the whole cleansing idea)
3. Get a job (Again)
4. Read a lot (Literature, articles, plays)
5. Blog substantially (I've been lazy lately and I apologise for it)
6. Be confident and outgoing
7. Respect Myself

Oh and by the way, forgive the photos. They were taken at my cousins hen party last night, I don't dress up all leopardy on a day to day basis ... Honest.